I know my story will lead people to attack me but I will appreciate any help I can get.
I
got married to my loving husband in April 2010. Although at first, I
was not really in love with him, but because I was getting older, and I
could not find any good man from my religion and tribe, my parents
introduced me to him and pressured us into marriage.
The
first time I had an affair, it was a mistake. I ran into my ex and we
exchanged Blackberry pins. We chat all the time and at that point, I was
not really happy in my marriage so I encouraged him. Soon after, we
started to hang out and started sleéping together. He eventually moved
from Lagos to Abuja so that ended our affair.
Since
then, I have had a few flings with four more men including my friend's
husband. I currently have two children with my husband but I feel
unsatisfied.
My
husband is very loving and kind, and I have grown to love him but I'm
not able to stop this extra-marital affair. The sad thing is that my
husband has no clue what is going on. I never give him any reason to
suspect. I delete all my phone messages even though he does not even
check my phones. I make sure I cover my tracks because I want to keep my
family together.
Recently
I talked to my Pastor who encouraged me to keep praying and fasting but
this isn't helping because still keep my men outside and I still see
them.
I know I need to stop, but I don't know how. Please Help.
Rachael.
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